Written by Rizwaana Latiff, Te Whatu Ora
I don’t think that I was born to be a leader.
I was incredibly shy, lacked self-esteem, and was fearful of stepping out of my comfort zone. Constantly wondering if I would fit in, be accepted, and whether others would like me. I had led a very prescriptive life – what was expected of a good mother, wife, nurse... Probably the only role that I had done instinctively was that of a midwife – but even that with some boundaries. My journey with the NZLP has given me the opportunity to be my authentic self and be proud of it.
While I was on the programme, there was a small, persistent voice within me that urged me: C'mon Rizwaana you can do this! Take up the wero and be who you are – it's time to be brave. Time to embrace the tough and challenging road ahead, surely with all the challenges you have faced, what could be worse? How much more challenging can it be?
I have always had this vision of sticking out like a ‘sore thumb’ in most public settings, as often I would be the only one that looked like me. I so wanted just to blend in. The thought of speaking at a public event would make me sick to the stomach. I dreaded the possibility of failure and what others might think of me. I guess I am my own worst critic. Even if others commended me, I would still internally critique myself – thinking afterwards of the things I could have done better! Since being on the programme, I am slowly but surely getting used to putting myself out there.
Through the programme, I realised that not all leaders are born. They can be nurtured, mentored, and trained. It takes a blend of courage, faith, and unwavering belief to not only support but mentor a person on their leadership journey. Today, I am still enjoying my leadership journey, continuously learning and reflecting on my leadership style for both personal growth and its positive impact on others.
As for my leadership style? It is firstly and foremost knowing yourself. Knowing not only your values and strengths, but also acknowledging your own biases. Exploring basic concepts of inclusion, diversity, inclusive decision-making, and what respect means to you. In our context in Aotearoa NZ, I feel it is vital to acknowledge our role as a Treaty partner – exploring our own views on the effects of colonisation, and having a bicultural view in a multicultural community. Establishing a relationship with Mana Whenua is, in my opinion, a vital aspect of my leadership journey.
I believe not only in leading by example but leading from behind. Creating and fostering a supportive environment, and encouraging every team member to contribute their unique strengths. I aim to inspire and empower others to reach their full potential, fostering a culture of growing capability and resilience. These will be the tools to not only meet challenges, but to celebrate successes. Leadership is not only about what you achieve today but what legacy you are leaving for your mokopuna.
Stepping out of my comfort zone into my leadership, and understanding not only my own leadership but my beliefs about leadership, are products of my time as a participant of the
NZLP Class of 2023. This journey still resonates and has a significant impact on my life – and sure, I do miss each and every one of you!